Not sure

3-4 first week of this term I feel strange to    people around me. It like a presage about my relationship. Today I know that. I alway think to save this relation but now...It will be gone. I don't know what happen with it and don't understand why what's change. I hope and pay it to better. I want to make it to a beautiful memory before I gone to the university. I don't want to pretend to smile, laugh or everything that disturb my though.